I’ve started each year with making goals for my year. This year, I didn’t exactly share them (at least not publicly). I was cautious of my goals knowing I was coming off knee surgery and I was wary of making a ton of running goals.
To be completely honest, I have no interest in running a half-marathon this year. I might have told people that I wanted to, and that might have been true at the time, but my heart isn’t in it. I don’t want to train for one. I don’t want to wake up at 5 in the morning to get runs in. I don’t want to have sore legs all the time. I don’t want to risk re-injuring my knee (this may sound more like an excuse than a reason but bear with me). I don’t want to feel the pressure (that I put on myself) to PR every time.
I spent the last two years (since Akron Marathon) feeling like I lost my passion for running. I hurt my knee at that marathon and I suffered through runs during the past two years. I wasn’t enjoying it and my heart wasn’t in it. I was fine with running short distances, but anytime I got over 5 miles I was miserable. It didn’t help that I did have an actual injury that was nagging and was making running worse, but even when it wasn’t hurting I didn’t feel the passion I had in 2012-2013. I would use running as an excuse to eat whatever I wanted and I gained weight. You’d think someone who was constantly running wouldn’t gain weight, but I did. I lost all of the weight (25 pounds) after I stopped running consistently.
So I’m not going to make any running goals. I’m signed up for Glass City Marathon Relay in April, Rite Aid Cleveland Marathon 10K in May, and I’m planning on doing the OSU 4 miler (because I always do it) in the fall. I might add another 10K in the summer (Goodyear 10K), but those are the races I’m planning on running for now.
As for golf, I really want to qualify for the Women’s Mid-Am tournament in Naples, FL. Two years ago, I made it into a playoff for an alternate spot (the alternate ended up going to the tournament) and had my worst hole of the day in my playoff. I don’t even want to be in the position to be in a playoff this year; I want to qualify with no questions. I still get so nervous for tournaments and don’t play to my potential and it’s so annoying. I want to do everything I can this summer to reach my goal.